The Reason

I've always liked Genting Highlands. My friends would know how often I've suggested Genting as a gathering place. It's not the games or the theme park that I like to go to, I've got over that long time ago. What I like there is the memories that I've collected.

Of course all trips to this highland starts with family-trips. I still remember how I cried over not able to ride the carousel ... and then hoping that the "old car" ride around the outdoor theme park will never stop... and how us family just picnic at the garden enjoying the cool air. The never-ending chit chats and the funny way people dress during the days with their bell bottoms and sunglasses. I just wish I could show pictures of it. I can ... if I get a scanner =x It's too embarassing to scan these photos at a friend's place. I think I had a picture of me crying for not able to get on some rides. God, then I always wished that the trip will never be over.

My first trip going there alone without family is with my first gf. Too bad I don't have any photos to keep as memories but until today I still remember how we wonder around Genting after counting down to the new years till 3 - 4am just because of the jam and we couldn't get back to Gohtong Jaya where we stayed with your cousin. I still remember how chilly were the winds ... and how it blew and bended the shrubs there to 30 degrees ... and how I took off my jacket and gave it to you because you said you were cold. I still remember how your cousin and her gang of friends refuse to shut up even it's 6am and I kept trying to sleep and they will wake me up with they laughter or comment >.< I still remember how annoyed I felt !! I wonder if you still remember ?

There is also the wonderful Christmas that I spent there with you guys up there right after SPM. Seriously, that was for me THE BEST outing ever.

it's white christmas

I was really really happy the WHOLE time =D It was really run spraying around ...




Getting to know the little girl who likes to pose for pictures xD






Getting sprayed by pretty girls ...



and spraying them back.



We would then go back to the room and shower and go down trying to do it all over again. I would never forget playing pool, daytona & photo hunt with you guys ...

shot of the year? xD

especially loong with his witty comments and charming even little girls. (no he is not a pedophile it's just his charm has no age limits xD)

loong on the left

I still remember the excitement of getting on my first roller coaster and the suspense of waiting for spaceshot (then spaceshot was fun and it was literally space shot where u get shot up and down again unlike now which is just like sitting on a falling chair). There is also the time when me and my friends were crazy about shuffling and we would go there to shuffle =D There are videos xD Genting was also the place where we club together for the first time (i hope is not the last)


Remember the time where Ong got drunk and said silly things ? There was his trademark "bang bang" and it all happened there.

There was also the time where my mom went with us during her sickness ... along with 2 other families. It has been so long since I have went on family trips. It would be her last trip with us.

I miss you so much now. Well, life has moved on but things will never be the same again without you around ... you and your infectious laughter. Trying to scare me and sis while we watch horror movies. How you would wait me at the school gate when I get off school. Silver coloured Serena still now catches my eye and I try all the time to see if it was the same car you drove. Too bad it has to go. Gone were the days where I can still tell you my worries and my problems and how you tell it it's going to go away. I still remember how I cried during primary school when I got into a fight with friends and they all isolated me ... and how I changed after you talking to me and giving me strength. I bullied them back =x (yeah I was this big bully during primary school but believe me .. I've changed my ways xD I can't even hurt a cockroach now) But now ... I can't go to you and share my problems anymore. I can't go to you to watch dramas together and comment an actor's lousy acting ... their funny moments.

I can't do so many things with you anymore. But I'm glad. I'm glad that you now face no pain. No more suffering. I hope you are happy now wherever you are. I really do. I still remember how you said your unhappy sometimes with your while driving me home. I miss your laughter, I miss your smile. I miss everything about you. School is starting again it was just like yesterday where the start of the previous semester ... the day you left us, I know how much you would like to see me graduate. I will do it properly this time ... for myself and for you.

Good night.

How I Met Your Mother & The Spirit

Let us take a breather from that long post.

So how was Christmas for everyone ? Mine was so-so didn't really went like how I expected it to go but it was fun to get to see so many friends together again .. we got drunk (at least I did) and end up thinking in mandarin while trying to speak cantonese >.< The workings of the brain is always a mystery =D
"How I Met Your Mother" ... (have..... you met ted ?) =D

For those who haven't watch it do go and try at least one epi ... it's a comedy about how Ted met his wife which revolves around the life of 5 friends Ted, Robin, Barney, Marshall and Lily. He actually does this through narration of his flashbacks to his kids. It tells about how they grow up and go through life with its happy stuff and the shits that comes at you everyday so ... relatable sometimes. So do try it xD and lookout for Barney ..


no not the purple dinosaur ...


but Barney Stenson ! xD


Went and watched a movie today with a friend, "The Spirit"


Was actually going to watch "Bedtime Stories" but it's sold out =.= which I think would be a better choice. The Spirit is actually very beautiful aesthetically ... the cinematography and stuff was really nice. You really does see the comic book coming alive. In a comic perspective. So don't expect some real-life action here. The directors of 300 can really make EVERY shot looks nice and the whole movie is just like flipping through the comic frame by frame. But the storyline for me is too short and was looking forward to those fantastic fight scenes from 300 which didn't come and many symbolysm was used so ... might be confusing for a lot of people who don't understand it. If your looking for graphical eye-candy then The Spirit might be for you or if ur a fan of Scarlett Johannson you could go too =D she was hot in the movie other than that I suggest you just choose another movie from the endless list of nice movies coming out in January xD

PS: Thanks for saving OUR lives with ur "wei" ... if not this post won't even be posted. For those curious ... I nearly crashed the car while busy talking =\ lucky the brakes are working like it should xD

Reflections ( Part 1 )

The skies have cleared up and the view outside my window is wonderful !

the view without the grills

Well, the weather did great into giving me the mood to blog again ... minus the glare from the sun which makes focusing on the monitor difficult. *closes curtains* much better !

I've been reviewing a lot of blogs lately due to boredom and the long wait to get prison break from menwai =D a lot of people is writing about what they did during the past year, their memories etc etc. That inspired me =x well, I've done a lot of reflecting also but they are just merely thoughts going through my head and I've never really tried to arrange them and put them together.

First and foremost let me start with my friends from Wangsa Maju xD

It was during form 5 when during our many lepak-ing sessions at the playground at night (i'm sure kc remembers it xD) when we talked and loong mentioned something about a photobook where we collect all our photos together and we each get one to help us remember each other when we graduate later. First I thought it was fun to get each and everyone's baby photos and put them together haha xD and then the idea evolved into what we call ourselves today - Trance
and boy ... how we've grown xD

The first and foremost how can we start this without introducing our 3 "flowers" xD

from left : waiyee, sueann n munlee

That was how they looked like when we were form 5 and from my previous post I bet people will be curious on who is the unlucky Kings so here he is with wantin his long-term partner in crime .. or can we say victim of his but jokes aside they are do bring life to the party when both of them are together ... their never-ending bickering really does bring joy to the party xD.

thats him on the left and wantin on the right XD

okay ... I really didn't do justice with his picture so here is another one. In real life he actually looks pretty handsome xD

i've really tried .. >.< you need to give me a new picture !

us in the last day of school. we really rocked that year you know ? xD

And from that they on, this "group" of ours has done a lot of things ... lots of memorable things.

We went Genting together ... A LOT.

genting 04

genting cny 06

Genting June 07

we doing the America's Next Top Model thing =D

We even flew ...


to Redang xD

trecherous walk to hotel >.< it's really far know ?!

the whole bunch of us

As you can see in most pics posted ... we rarely go TOGETHER as in all of us together in a group for trips. These are just the trips that I've went and there are others which I've skipped. One of my wishes for the new years would be we go on one trip together ? xD (yes, one of the wishes. i want more)

And as our group really consists of a lot of people .. it is very hard for me to post each and everyone's picture so those who I haven't posted .. I'm sorry and I really don't do justice with these photos as these are only summaries of what we've done ... and by doing this post and reviewing all the photos I had saved is another experience altogether =D

This post is getting too long so it will be broken into parts ... and I also remembered why I'm lazy to blog sometimes ... uploading the photos takes a long time and I don't really like blogspot's "create posts" thing .. the formatting screws up once in a while ... especially when there is a lot of photos.

EDIT : Another thing before I end this, I still remember that I weren't close with everyone at all until form 3, I was just keeping to myself and menwai. The reason menwai and I be friends is also because he geli me the first day of school ?! =.= Although it took me 3 years only get to know you guys. I just wanted to let you guys know how much fun the journey was and how it shaped me to being me today. Looking forward to making even more memories with you guys.

The End of part 1 ~

At home

I promised myself I'm going to start to write here more often so here I am again xD

It's been a BORING day I so so wanted to go out and have some HUMAN interaction. I'm stuck at home with my computer for the whole day and I've finished my dramas >.< (heroes can come out faster or not ! >.<). Spending time at home is good sometimes but this has been going for a week already and most of the time my family isn't home. My dad will be at work ... my sister will be at college and I get to spend the day with the maid again ! GREAT !! It's a big contrast to before where I'll be out almost EVERYDAY but still just going to cybercafes and spending time with computers albeit this time with friends. This is too extreme and unhealthy =.= My sleeping times are way off and when I have breakfast other people will be having lunch >.< this lifestyle really gotta change.

Well, this is surely better than my friend Kings xD His monitor got struck by lightning and he took it for repairs and after 2 weeks of suffering without his computer .. he finally got his monitor back ! To only find out that now his graphic card is having a problem. So he STILL cannot use his computer. As he still has warranty on the thing .. claiming the warranty will take him another month. Poor guy. I hope he will solve his computer woes soon.

This happens during weekdays. I hope my college friends finishes their finals soon and those uni friends of mine ? Please stop working ? =D or at least dun work at uni la .. I kenot visit T.T

Gosh. I need to find myself a hobby ~ btw the weather is getting colder or is it just me ?

December

I actually don't know what to write but the feeling to write again came to me suddenly. So here I am xD

It's December again, used to be my favourite month of the year but ... after the climate changes, I can say it has gone down my list. It's raining everyday in KL and have clouds all over the sky all the time. What happened to the stars and moon. That was one of the reasons I like December. Another was it's holidays =x and you get to see friends. But holidays is different now. We are not from the same school anymore and our holidays is different from each other and everyone has their own priorities so we don't get to meet up that often. Well, not everyone. Although not meeting up often, the feelings you guys can give me whenever we meet is still the same. It's a very comfortable feeling where you can share everything and you know that there won't be any hostility, or fakeness (well, I've had my share of it in the world) and I really agreed on what kC said on her post. We've really learnt how to accept each other and the feeling is really special. It's like coming back to family. xD

December is also a month where I would spend some time to reflect back on the year, some sort of like a review before starting hopefully a wonderful year ahead. I've been reading back past posts of mine, my friends and other blogs. I've come to see how far I've gone since the days we were together in secondary school. My writing style has changed. I got to know more people and learnt a lot of new things. Discovered yet new bad habits I must dispose of ... and got to travel ! Well, it might have not been much for others but each and every location I've been is really eye-opening and most of the time it's a very humbling experience. Travelling can really make you see the world in a whole new different perspective and hopefully I can take in those experiences and improve myself even more.

One of the experiences that really changed me, well it really did if it didn't show (yet) .. it will soon =x is the NVC trip. With it I got to know a lot of different people. See a lot of different situations ... It showed me another part of life that I didn't know. Seriously, what you sometimes see in dramas ... happen in real life >.< Thats why they are called dramas. It's really humbling to know how little I know of life and I'm thankful that I went through it no matter how tough it was.

Another was a recent trip to Alor Setar to find syhwei xD NOW I know where you lived =x Although didn't really did much there, no la .. >.< we did a lot there but the most important thing is the company. Really enjoyed it ! A lot ! And the scenery is just amazing. Imagine waking up surrounded by padi fields ? Too bad I have no camera with me =x

Now, I have too many things running through my mind to write about and I don't know which to write about @.@ Ideas are flowing non-stop !! Argh. I think I will stop here =x This is getting me a headache hahaha. Before that, I'm really looking forward to Christmas. Well, actually it's that gathering that we've planned to have that I'm looking forward to =x Although there isn't much planning to it but I bet it will be just fun. Just us again hanging out and getting drunk (well at least I know someone will xD ... u know who you are) =x Looking forward to spend quality time with you guys.

Speaking of which, these few months made me realise that families and friends are very important to me. What is fun when there is no one to share it with ? =D Good night !

Holidays ~ .. well not quite.

tired ..

This weekend back home perhaps it's the most productive one for me. Had my NVC stuff printed out and ready. Printed my notes read a few things on TDR (Recombinant DNA Technology) although I still have a lot to go for TDR but it's a start I suppose.

There are still a lot of things backlogged and I can't keep them out of my mind *sigh*
1. Chemistry still need of revising and have to start on doing the notes
2. Need to revise gene pop which I have really no idea at all until now >.> I've been dreaming through the lectures.
3. NVC script for Law Faculty
4. MKC video
5. Revise TITAS (this course is a joke .. never really turn up for lectures but have to start reading before it's too late =.=)

Thats all I can think of at the moment. These tasks plus those personal ones are driving me to sleepless nights. I went to the hair salon today, my friend there said I'm getting thinner *sigh* this is a bad sign. Seriously, my ideal weekend is going back home .. be able to sleep and rest without a need to think of any schoolwork/project. One of my new year resolutions is getting fatter aso .. at this rate it isn't much going to happen.

I will have to work my ass off this week for sure. As there is a long weekend coming up due to the public holidays, I hope to finish all the things I have in hand and then sneak in a day of rest or so. I'm just so so so tired .... I really do hope to catch up on my studies in time though, things doesn't look that bright anymore for me to maintain my dean's list this semester. I've done terribly in the mid-semester test. I'm not pleased at all with my performance. I know I can do much much better. Now all there's left is to put those words I type here all the time into action.

Well, moving on to happier things. I've booked a trip to Redang with my friends for this coming sem break. Hope that everything goes well and I will be going with some friends of my friends. Hopefully I don't scare them away like I do most of the time =\

Really looking forward for this semester break. It will be good just to sit at home and spend time with my family and think over stuff. Finally I will have time for myself. I just don't feel balanced when I don't have time to do the things that I really enjoy doing *sigh* I haven't played music in ages .. my guitar is collecting dust over in the corner. Other than that I must rest, eat and sleep ! Haha maybe my new year resolution might not fail just yet !

Going back to uni now. Will try to blog more frequently =D there are readers reading right ? Haha ciao ~

A new beginning !

It's 3am now and I've just finished another "dagei" session with the guys. I've still haven't done any studying that I've planned and other chores that I've planned to finish by today. "Will do it tomorrow", this seems to be my motto for the past month. I've promised myself to patch things up and I've been putting off things forever. This should serve as a stern reminder.

Dreams

It is now 3.53pm. I've promised myself that I would at least do some studying during this weekend to slowly cover back what I've missed during the past half semester and yet here I am procrastinating. I've been so backlogged *sigh*. Time passes very quickly and this semester being a short one, accelerates the feeling even more. Only recently I've finished one of my project, 7th college's MKC, a chinese cultural night. Happy that keeaun, menwai and amos they all which came. It was a tiring night but you guys' presence made it all worth it. Although I admit it could have been better but I've done my best for the night =\ This project has taken its toll on me a lot. I've even skipped quizzes and done badly for my mid-sem test *sigh* Time to catch up .. really.

I've planned a lot for the coming weeks and I really hope I have to strength in me to see it through. This means a lot of cut backs in entertainment and a lot of focus I have to put in my life. It's been a long time since I've felt this way. I like this feeling. I feel alive. It's like having a focus back in life. Something that I felt I've lost after form 5.

Looking at the papers today, I came across the education section again. SPM / STPM results are coming out soon and more school leavers are getting a step closer to achieving their dreams which comes to the topic of the post today. Looking at them brings a certain nostalgic feeling in me. I was in their shoes not a long time ago .. thinking hard on what next step should I take in life. Looking back at them also brings envy as they still has the choice with them. The world has strange ways of teaching people things. These short few months have brought countless revelations and other enlightening things. Now if only I get up from my ass and apply them in life.

I believe I can still achieve my dream of becoming a doctor and I will do it even though the road will be long and hard. Take it as a detour. Not to forget is my other dream of traveling ... Well, I'm getting a jump start at this as I'm planning to do some within the country during sem breaks. Now to only find companions =D I've always kept my childhood dreams close to my heart and I still do. I will see that those does not just remain as dreams.

It will become my reality someday.

My life is in such a mess now =.= Time to work it out. Wish me luck.

Home

Everyone gets to do their new year's post but not me T.T It's now the lunar new year already and finally I got the time to sit down and write something. First things first, I've a good feeling for this year .. I really do. Although 2008 didn't really start of with a bang but it has given me positive enough vibes to keep me feeling good.

All my college-mates are now back to their respective hometowns *sigh* I wonder what is the feeling of actually going back to one as every year it's just me and my old bunch of friends here in KL. We've practically done everything. For just once I really wish to know what it feels like to go home. I've tasted some of it though living at the hostel at all although I just do it on weekends. The sweet smell of home is really something you cannot replace. It is a place for you to hide and recharge even though all hells breaks loose outside.

It's been a struggle for me during these weeks without any update. Been busy with projects, assignments (which reminds me I haven't started doing much yet), tests and more test. It feels just so lonely out there all alone striving for so-called excellence. Sometimes, I just don't know what and why I'm doing all those things anyway. It's really draining .. mentally and physically. Well, we can easily fix the physical part but mentally *sigh*

I've never been missing my secondary school friends this much before. Knowing that they will always be there for me is assuring. Kenny with his "fuck you bitch" sms-es which he sends whenever he feels like it, to going out with Kingsley and Kc which will decide things for you. There were ups and downs in our friendship but if you gave me a chance I would do that all over again. I wonder why I can't get this feeling back in college. It all feels so alien .. I am thinking too much again but it just doesn't feel right. I'm not happy. *sigh* The silence of the night always wins.

I'm glad I have some really roommate though. I really would like to stay on with them at college. I hope they don't mind me as their roommate though. They brought me the colours of university life. Why am I suddenly so feeling detached from the people in college? I wonder why. I actually gotten better among the seniors and other juniors .. I've been trying to learn to speak mandarin the best I can. I seriously think I interact and communicate more with them but I don't feel the sense of belonging at all .. I wonder if any of you guys are reading this. Care to teach me ? I've never been good in the social department.

Every blog post and I have to rant some negative things. Damn it ! Well, those things aside. My college project is coming up and I'm in-charged of the sound / music production for the performance. I'm really looking forward to see what effects can it bring to the drama. I hope my sound selection is suitable. Do come and support me !! It will be held on 21/02/08 at 7th RC UM =D

That's it for tonight. Gotta get back to FFXII =P