Tuesday, January 27, 2009

New Year, Kids and My Mouth

I've actually intended to update the blog for numerous times. Quite a number of things came up and it actually made wanted to blog about it ... but the mood left after awhile. Can't really commit myself to anything much really.

Chinese New Year started out quite dull for me ... but it turned out better than expected today. I can be quite sociable around with people .. other than family. I'm more controlled in front of them >.< A lot of things I've changed but in front of people from my past or I've known for a long time ... the changes just won't register. I just tend to revert to the old me. Perhaps I just can't stand their comments on "Wow, you've changed into blabla ! How come ha ?" hmm ... I'm strange. Anyone else experienced this too?

My uncle's kid can now walk ... it was so funny that he just walks on the carpet and don't dare to walk on the floor. It was like an invisible barrier for him ... until his mom came. The daring-ness suddenly kicked in and he was all over the place =D Kids are cute and fun ... should'nt everyone stay that way ? Kids and I also have a certain attraction to each other. They tend to come to me a lot. They will stare into me with their huge big eyes and drool dripping off their mouths. I would freeze. I just don't know why. No matter how much I would like to go play / disturb them .. I wouldn't know what to do ... I will try to melt my cold cold heart =x Btw, my uncle's kid is really handsome ... I bet when he grows up many girls' heart will melt xD but too bad no photos =( really need to have a camera. But then, I think the laziness in me will kick in and I will find it a hassle to bring it around =(

I've actually planned to use the long Chinese New Year holidays for rest, finish all my pending stuff and also for a little bit of studying. Truthfully, till now I don't even have notes for some of the classes ... and some classes I don't know what the lecturer is talking about. In the classroom, I'm just glancing at the clock hoping the class to be over. Why isn't classes this semester as interesting as the last one ? Tests are coming after the holidays too ...

I'm looking forward to the Ipoh trip xD Finally some adventuring with you guys =D Let us not overdo the drinking part ok King? You shouldn't do shots with a normal house mug. We should invest in shot glasses =D

Before I ever forget .. I've been wanting to blog about this since forever and thanks to that someone who reminds me bout it I'm going to do it now. Have anyone had a perfect day before ? You know .. where everything on that day just seem so right ? Every minute detail .. every event, every person, every word said or heard seems to come out right and on the right time ?

I usually don't have perfect days a lot. The only solution for it is to go to sleep early. Most of the near-perfect days I had is usually spoiled in the end by me ... and my shitty mouth. Just before the day ends .. I would just end up doing saying something stupid ... which made the mood goes south. It would end up me feeling bad the whole night. My shitty mouth doesn't just stop there to ruin my perfect days. It will surface in all sorts of situations. A lot of which I knew I shouldn't do that but ... my mouth goes faster than my brain. This gets worst when I'm cranky or when I'm tired. Shit >.< I'm being more and more of an idiot. I shall now rule my mouth more stringently !

Sunday, January 25, 2009

It is here

The chilly winds, hot sun and the quiet-ness of Kuala Lumpur ...

The smell of wonderful cooking, the sounds of laughter and merry making ...

The sounds of delighted young children running around, the voices of aunts catching up ...

The red decorations, the warm ambience ...

The never ending supply of grilled meat, varieties of biscuits and packets of drinks ...

Everyone is gathered back here today ... because it is here.

Happy Chinese New Year !!

PS : Will post another entry later =x rushing for dinner

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Her

Finally, I've had my dream of her ... !! While I was having my afternoon nap =D

It looks like everyone already has dreams of her but yet I didn't >.<

What happened during the dream ? ... My secret =x

It's just nice to able to see her, hold her hands and talk to her again.

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I love you mom =D

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

I HATE

morning jams !!! Got stuck in the traffic for 1 hour and 30 mins for a normal journey which would take 25 mins in normal traffic conditions. Coupled that with lack of sleep and the urge to pee >.< BEST FEELING EVER !

Stupid traffic jams aside, finally my college room is ready. Well, for my part it's tomorrow. They have finally installed the fan on my roommate's side of the room. Mine is going to be done tomorrow. Hopefully. So cleaned the room today and helped my roommate move in. That was tiring. And sweaty. And smelly >.< I also heard my room isn't going to get any wifi signal. Sucks.

Tomorrow, there will be no more searching for food in the fridge. No more cold drinks whenever I want them. No more aircon. But it will be suppers with roommate and collegemates and doing crazy stuff with my roommate again. =D Sleeping with a buddy is fun =x (please don't get wrong ideas =D) and best of all ... NO MORE MORNING JAMS !!!

Tomorrow will be the first practical for this semester too, experiments to run, reports to write, assignments to do, presentations to do ... what is there not to like ... NOT. But moving back into college really does brings back the mood. Now I'm feeling more like studying again. Looking at how things is going this semester, I bet it's going to be AWESOME and AWESOME-er especially with how things is going with coursemates and hopefully collegemates =D

People, I'm back. Hmm ... now what to pack ?

PS: Reminder to self - long afternoon naps make you can't sleep at night >.<

Monday, January 5, 2009

Whaddup UM

Anxious parents, bad jams, teary faces, excited shouts and lost faces.



The ingredients that makes up the first day of school. If you are in primary one.

It was the first day of school for me too today. *sigh* It's been so long since I've touched a pen, sat at the lecture hall listening to the lecture and viewing slides ... suddenly it all seemed alien to me. I fidgeted all the time. I couldn't concentrate. I was just wishing it would be over soon ... until Dr. Hashima questioned, yelled and sighed in front of us. Brought me back straight away ! I just hope I can continue to have the mood for this >.<



So now here I am back in UM facing another sem of assignments, studying, library-ing and kepo-ing. Whaddup UM !

PS : A shoutout to blondie in our class today =x

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Stories ? xD

2009 started great !! Although not literally, didn't really slept well on the 1st day of 2009 even though got tired playing badminton and it was raining at night. Plenty of pictures / events flashed through my mind the entire night ... especially Abruzzi's =.= why did u come to me even when you're dead ! Been watching too much Prison Break ad. There are also a lot of random people appearing in and out of my dreams ... I feel rested in a way but it's more physically than mentally. Why is this happening again ?!

Well, despite having not enough sleep ... went on a movie marathon on the 2nd which was great. While churning out incoherant nonsense once in a while and having little headaches along the way it was a GREAT day especially when you have great movies coupled with great company. I really had a great time especially with those "moments-of-paisehness" , I just hope you did too xD

We went to watch Yes Man, Dark Floors and Bedtime Stories. Dark floors was nothing to shout about, the scare was predictable and the plot wasn't really going anywhere. The were too much use of symbolism that it became confusing in the end >.< It was trying to be an artsy movie and a horror movie at the same time which didn't really do it for me. The only reason I didn't sleep through it was because the noise is too loud and the promise of getting an explanation of the events that happened which didn't happen in the end. End note the movie sucked !! This is for those people who is thinking or was thinking of watching it. Just. don't. waste. your. time.

The night ended wonderfully with Bedtime Stories which brings me to a topic I would like to talk about for quite sometime but just didn't know how to put it into words. I will try =D

We often hear people say how much they would like to be a child again or like Peter Pan how they would never want to grow up. Life for most of us I guess, is more wonderful during their childhood years? Why is that? The world seem so mysterious and big when we are small. Every single thing is new to us. Anything can turn into a big adventure from a small toy car / truck (which reminds me I have a fleet of those use to be my pride and joy ... I think I still have the picture =D ask me for it if you wanna see haha). I still remember how a small housing are could turn into a racing track with just me and my bicycle or how it would turn into a safari when trying to cycle through an area with a lot of trees. The power of make-believe ? Life isn't much fun now that we've grown up and we've "been there ... done that" and that we know so much now. I think it's ingrained in our nature that we humans like to explore and discover things. Thats the natural curiousity of children that we all used to have within us or some still have (some define this as kepo but it's a subjective matter).

I think life could be as fun as it was for us during when we are small. The world is just as big and still need exploring. There are plenty things out there waiting for us to do and some may say they don't have the money to do it etc but I say, there are just things that you don't really need a huge inheritance to able to pull it off. Simple things that can be done out of your comfort zone should do the trick such as visiting a place you wouldn't go ? Go on an unplanned trip ( i did this the past sem hols .. it was fun especially without the planning haha) it doesn't need to be far. We have so many states in Malaysia and being in a local uni with friends in almost every state should cut the accomodation costs down a lot xD (i mean well if they are willing to take you in that is). I'm sure it could be worked out. All that is left is whether you're up to it or not. Life can be just as fun as you want it to be even though now that we've grown up and we have to worry about bills, the laundry, college activities, projects to run ... oh well I'm not that grown up yet to have many things to worry about =x Things would work out if you really want it to ... sometimes we just need to have a little faith =D

Oh yeah, and my maid left me today ... so I really have to worry about laundry, cleaning and food now T.T Another step to being independent =x I wonder when can I afford to move into the fortress of Barnitude (my own house) I bet it would be fun ... if only I can master the laundry, cleaning and food thing. And no I would not furnish the house like him. =D especially his collection, I have something better =x

- You don't have to go far to turn a new page in your life - the only important thing on New Year's Day is to wake up -
*from the papers today

Thursday, January 1, 2009

First ...

Goodbye 2008, hello 2009.

The first post for 2009. It's actually great to be able to finally say good bye to 2008. It wasn't a great year. It was such a bad year for me that most of my memories about it are vague. I just whizzed through it using auto-pilot. I guess it's my subconciousness doing its job. Suppressing the hard part. Lost my mom, lost a friend, broke up, made a lot of wrong decisions and learnt a lot from it. However, it ended pretty well. It's like finally waking up from a bad dream and coming to my senses again.

The fireworks this year was really AWESOME ... and this is the first time I actually had goosebumps watching fireworks. Maybe it's because of the happy atmosphere created by everyone there.. it felt like home. How I so love Wangsa Maju. We literally have the world at our doorsteps. Transportation was really convenient having LRT and busses, malls to do shopping, mamak and wonderful view of the KL skyline =D Thats where I saw the fireworks xD

I'm having a pretty good feeling that 2009 will love me. It's going to be more studying. It's going to be lots of laughter during lectures. It's going to be fun outings. It's going to be a lot of movie-watching. It's going to be a lot of drinking. It's going to be a lot of singing and dancing. It's going to be fun and games all the way. It's going to be LEGENDARY !! xD

Happy New Year everyone !