tired ..

This weekend back home perhaps it's the most productive one for me. Had my NVC stuff printed out and ready. Printed my notes read a few things on TDR (Recombinant DNA Technology) although I still have a lot to go for TDR but it's a start I suppose.

There are still a lot of things backlogged and I can't keep them out of my mind *sigh*
1. Chemistry still need of revising and have to start on doing the notes
2. Need to revise gene pop which I have really no idea at all until now >.> I've been dreaming through the lectures.
3. NVC script for Law Faculty
4. MKC video
5. Revise TITAS (this course is a joke .. never really turn up for lectures but have to start reading before it's too late =.=)

Thats all I can think of at the moment. These tasks plus those personal ones are driving me to sleepless nights. I went to the hair salon today, my friend there said I'm getting thinner *sigh* this is a bad sign. Seriously, my ideal weekend is going back home .. be able to sleep and rest without a need to think of any schoolwork/project. One of my new year resolutions is getting fatter aso .. at this rate it isn't much going to happen.

I will have to work my ass off this week for sure. As there is a long weekend coming up due to the public holidays, I hope to finish all the things I have in hand and then sneak in a day of rest or so. I'm just so so so tired .... I really do hope to catch up on my studies in time though, things doesn't look that bright anymore for me to maintain my dean's list this semester. I've done terribly in the mid-semester test. I'm not pleased at all with my performance. I know I can do much much better. Now all there's left is to put those words I type here all the time into action.

Well, moving on to happier things. I've booked a trip to Redang with my friends for this coming sem break. Hope that everything goes well and I will be going with some friends of my friends. Hopefully I don't scare them away like I do most of the time =\

Really looking forward for this semester break. It will be good just to sit at home and spend time with my family and think over stuff. Finally I will have time for myself. I just don't feel balanced when I don't have time to do the things that I really enjoy doing *sigh* I haven't played music in ages .. my guitar is collecting dust over in the corner. Other than that I must rest, eat and sleep ! Haha maybe my new year resolution might not fail just yet !

Going back to uni now. Will try to blog more frequently =D there are readers reading right ? Haha ciao ~

A new beginning !

It's 3am now and I've just finished another "dagei" session with the guys. I've still haven't done any studying that I've planned and other chores that I've planned to finish by today. "Will do it tomorrow", this seems to be my motto for the past month. I've promised myself to patch things up and I've been putting off things forever. This should serve as a stern reminder.

Dreams

It is now 3.53pm. I've promised myself that I would at least do some studying during this weekend to slowly cover back what I've missed during the past half semester and yet here I am procrastinating. I've been so backlogged *sigh*. Time passes very quickly and this semester being a short one, accelerates the feeling even more. Only recently I've finished one of my project, 7th college's MKC, a chinese cultural night. Happy that keeaun, menwai and amos they all which came. It was a tiring night but you guys' presence made it all worth it. Although I admit it could have been better but I've done my best for the night =\ This project has taken its toll on me a lot. I've even skipped quizzes and done badly for my mid-sem test *sigh* Time to catch up .. really.

I've planned a lot for the coming weeks and I really hope I have to strength in me to see it through. This means a lot of cut backs in entertainment and a lot of focus I have to put in my life. It's been a long time since I've felt this way. I like this feeling. I feel alive. It's like having a focus back in life. Something that I felt I've lost after form 5.

Looking at the papers today, I came across the education section again. SPM / STPM results are coming out soon and more school leavers are getting a step closer to achieving their dreams which comes to the topic of the post today. Looking at them brings a certain nostalgic feeling in me. I was in their shoes not a long time ago .. thinking hard on what next step should I take in life. Looking back at them also brings envy as they still has the choice with them. The world has strange ways of teaching people things. These short few months have brought countless revelations and other enlightening things. Now if only I get up from my ass and apply them in life.

I believe I can still achieve my dream of becoming a doctor and I will do it even though the road will be long and hard. Take it as a detour. Not to forget is my other dream of traveling ... Well, I'm getting a jump start at this as I'm planning to do some within the country during sem breaks. Now to only find companions =D I've always kept my childhood dreams close to my heart and I still do. I will see that those does not just remain as dreams.

It will become my reality someday.