My life is in such a mess now =.= Time to work it out. Wish me luck.

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Everyone gets to do their new year's post but not me T.T It's now the lunar new year already and finally I got the time to sit down and write something. First things first, I've a good feeling for this year .. I really do. Although 2008 didn't really start of with a bang but it has given me positive enough vibes to keep me feeling good.

All my college-mates are now back to their respective hometowns *sigh* I wonder what is the feeling of actually going back to one as every year it's just me and my old bunch of friends here in KL. We've practically done everything. For just once I really wish to know what it feels like to go home. I've tasted some of it though living at the hostel at all although I just do it on weekends. The sweet smell of home is really something you cannot replace. It is a place for you to hide and recharge even though all hells breaks loose outside.

It's been a struggle for me during these weeks without any update. Been busy with projects, assignments (which reminds me I haven't started doing much yet), tests and more test. It feels just so lonely out there all alone striving for so-called excellence. Sometimes, I just don't know what and why I'm doing all those things anyway. It's really draining .. mentally and physically. Well, we can easily fix the physical part but mentally *sigh*

I've never been missing my secondary school friends this much before. Knowing that they will always be there for me is assuring. Kenny with his "fuck you bitch" sms-es which he sends whenever he feels like it, to going out with Kingsley and Kc which will decide things for you. There were ups and downs in our friendship but if you gave me a chance I would do that all over again. I wonder why I can't get this feeling back in college. It all feels so alien .. I am thinking too much again but it just doesn't feel right. I'm not happy. *sigh* The silence of the night always wins.

I'm glad I have some really roommate though. I really would like to stay on with them at college. I hope they don't mind me as their roommate though. They brought me the colours of university life. Why am I suddenly so feeling detached from the people in college? I wonder why. I actually gotten better among the seniors and other juniors .. I've been trying to learn to speak mandarin the best I can. I seriously think I interact and communicate more with them but I don't feel the sense of belonging at all .. I wonder if any of you guys are reading this. Care to teach me ? I've never been good in the social department.

Every blog post and I have to rant some negative things. Damn it ! Well, those things aside. My college project is coming up and I'm in-charged of the sound / music production for the performance. I'm really looking forward to see what effects can it bring to the drama. I hope my sound selection is suitable. Do come and support me !! It will be held on 21/02/08 at 7th RC UM =D

That's it for tonight. Gotta get back to FFXII =P