Change of heart

If it was just 5 minutes earlier .. it would be a completely different post and it will be a password protected one too.

Whatever is happening to me. I hope it's going to be over soon.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

I hope.

The past half year

I was going to write this post yesterday but then got distracted with the Airasia zero fair promotion >< Didn't book the tickets for Bali yet .. If any of my coursemates are reading this please understand =)

It's been more than half a year since I've stopped writing. The usual reasons stopped me again but mainly it's laziness. Countless times I've wanted to post an update or a thought but ended up not doing anything about it .. Been putting a lot of things off besides blogging like cleaning my room, packing stuff, studying (which I am putting off NOW, I should be reading for the upcoming Animal & Plant Genetics) and then I decided for the 2734561823853276 time that I wanted to change. AGAIN. And then perhaps sometime down the road I would just put off that "change" thing I'm trying to do. I do that A LOT. To those who can dedicate their lives to something and finish it till the end. I salute them. My hangat hangat tahi ayam personality = major failure.

Woke up late again today, and my study mood went down the drain. Exam weeks are filled with all type of emotion really. They are torturing in the sense that you have to worry for the next paper and yet it gives you hope for the day the exam is over. And yet sometimes when you're lucky you get a lot of days off in between papers which make you don't wanna study at all and in the end you will end up regretting for not studying. Not to mention all the stress. Life has been stressful again. It has suddenly decided to throw this to me again after giving me bouts of holidays in which I have finally gotten myself a passport and been to Krabi, Thailand. It is wonderful i tell you






... and the euphoria of actually getting positive results for my thesis project - research are actually very satisfying ! And now the other part of life shows up. There are so many things that are to be done. Trips to plan, experiments to do, friends to find, things to write, things to buy and ...... *sigh* Some of the things which I can actually get up and do something about it and there are things which I cannot do anything about (which are even stressful) *sigh* Things like this saps my energy .... and they make me forget important little things in life like family. I seriously need to start spending more time with them. Enough of rants. Its time to live life =)

I'm going to be late for my movie. Ciao.

Something to say

After leaving this spot for a month plus ... I'm back XD

I was bogged down by lot of stuff, college activities and studies mostly.

Many stuff happened, in a blink of an eye, another semester is coming to an end. I will be taking my first final paper in 11 hours. Perhaps I've gone through too many finals, this time the finals doesn't really make much difference. I'm less nervous about it even though I'm ill-prepared. Or maybe it's the workload that I've been juggling which has numbed me. I don't know. I dislike this situation though. It's like I'm not there and I'm just on autopilot ... like in "Click" the movie.

With all life zooming by past me, I've neglected a lot of things such as family and friends. A lot of little things that are dear to me, I've just put them aside while I try to finish up my stuff. Selfish me. I really respect those people who can do it all. I do know what I should do and I wouldn't wish to put them aside but sometimes, I'm just out of energy and I needed rest. I shall learn to be stronger. And those who've been felt left out by me .. which I don't think will be many =x I'm really sorry but I don't think sorry will do any good.

PS: If in any way I can make it up to you, do tell me ... =D OTHER THAN stuff involving money =D I'm broke.

Imperfections

I've been finding more and more faults in myself these days.

Those that I've thought I've rectified .. will come back to haunt me. Most of the time .. it's when I'm cranky.

I'm really thankful for having friends which can put up with all these awkward mood/behavioural swings.

I'm trying my best. Really. Just would really like to thank you all for giving me chances ... so many of them too =D

I hope my post isn't lame =x

Damn ?

My dad slammed the phone on me. That made my day. Really. What a great ending to a GREAT week.

After going through so long through this "community" and trying my best to help and communicate with them. I'm really fed up. Yes, I've had my memories with them and most of them are wonderful ones. I think I should just let those memories stop there. I've been trying my best to support them the way I can yet every time I feel I'm being used instead of the sense of really helping out. Is this the sense of being in a community ? I seriously wonder now. Maybe I'm being too nice by not pointing out everything point blank. Maybe I'm being top nice by saving them face. But yet ... they don't try to save mine. Being ridiculed at every meeting sucks. They can now go on and be happy among themselves. It's not that I've never tried blending in. But if me joining is such a burden to them then I guess it's best for both parties that we both mind our business from now on.

After such a long time without posting and I have to come back with such a shitty post.

Way to go toma ~

I need more movies to inspire me.

College

As I step through the door of A417 of 7th RC yesterday night I felt a gush of wind. Strong. Wind. And also that familar perpectual whirring of a motor in operation.

They finally installed the fan in my room. Well, my part of the room that is. Now syhwei doesn't need to shiver the night away while maintaining the fan at it's highest speed as I being on the other side of the room trying my best to leech some wind off that solitary fan. Now that fan has a friend.

After finished unpacking, I realised that I left my breakfast back in the car and had to go all the way down to the carpark to get it. On the way back, even got a piece of cake as Tim is celebrating his birthday there. Juniors are all over the place working their asses off for MKC due in these coming 2 weeks. I pity them sometimes with so much to juggle and also don't forget the amount of schoolwork but I still had them to sell dedication for my own project. *sigh* The things I do sometimes .. I don't fancy them myself too but it just had to be done .. which brings me to that thought sometimes.

That thought ... which should be left alone for now =x

I actually switched on the computer to get some reading done for the comings tests and end up blogging. Felt like blogging yesterday but the topic ended up way different ... it's great to have wifi in the room but ... I can't login to msn @.@ well .. you just can't have everything in life I guess xD

Ipoh

Not too long ago, in a not-so-distant land ... there lived a boy named Abu

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He was a good boy .. until he found out he has a sister ... Aminah

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Who still keeps her age-old napkin since her baby days



They had many adventures together, they visited caves

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played firecrakers
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played cards
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the "ong" position

and of course ate together as well

aminah and abu

THE END

Enough about those 2 =x

It's been so long since I've blogged a proper activity. How was Chinese New Year for everyone ? Taking over from where I left off from my previous post .. CNY for me is activities after one another and here I'm going to share one of them.

I visited Ipoh on the 3rd day with my friends for a change. The rush of driving outstation solo for the first time without family ... and poking around a strange town =D it was fun xD although a bit scary at first ... as the house we're staying is quite "inside" the housing area .. but with houses like this

their electric bill must be high =.=

as landmark on where to turn ... it was quite safe =D As I brought my car there ... I get to visit zudian and also suetwah ... bumped into siew chong they all while at zudian's place. =D

We bunked in at kC's place and guess who got to be the maid now ? xD

Maid 001

the real kC at home

Was suppose to be out and about in Ipoh eating all the delicacies there ... but we end up sleeping late ... and playing wii most of the time xD Just a few days, our dear kingsley have became the tennis champ ... dailou the boxing king ... and waiyee the princess of bowling =D Here is the wii moments

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or even better .. a video =D
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they look like trying to fry noodles than boxing to me =x

And how is CNY complete without card games ?


After all that, we revisited our childhood with firecrakers

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circus was in town that night
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satay .. satay .. 30 sen 30 sen !
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dailou very happy
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me very happy too
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dailou (in blue) "aiks ? my one finish d ?"
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it was magical ~
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some god "communicated" with him
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our pretty host
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yeah i know this isn't fireworks but it's just funny xD

Well, we did get to go around to eat the local produce before we head home =D

their taugeh very big one

Our dinner before we head home was the best ! It was cheap and delicious ~ Too bad there isn't any pictures .. everyone was busy eating xD It is located in a housing area so it was quite difficult to find ... well for me that is. I think the locals will have no problem xD I only know it as "big small legs" in cantonese as it's famous for it's chicken and pork legs.

All in all, although we did miss a few things here and there Ipoh is great but ... but ... BUT ... the traffic lights are horrendous !!! It seems that every road there is a crossroad and you have to WAIT FOREVER for the lights to turn green ... and when they eventually turn green, people in front of you will just take their sweet time to cross and leaving you behind as the lights begin to turn red again. Then you wait ALL OVER AGAIN @.@

Before I sign off ... this is something we spotted while we were stopping at a rest area ... hmm ... xD

since when chu cheong fun become long keu tiaw ? hahahaha